Qing Han

Qinni (Qing Han) has passed away suddenly on 8 February, 2020. Her journey, however, has not ended. We begin a new chapter of continuing her legacy and her memory. There will be more to come on this page. As a reminder, and as a member of family, please be respectful of our privacy at this time. Thank you for being part of this journey. She will forever remain living through her artwork. -Ze, Qing’s brother.

[Fragile] ☔️ • • • Consider joining my $1 patreon? Link in my profile :3~ Haha a girl’s gotta try xD~ • Hey guys, long time no update here. Not feeling the best today, but at least last round of chemo went better than my first round so I will take it. I feel so tired and weak but I've never had such strong urge to keep drawing, so I might have pushed my body a little too far yesterday.... I've made a list of all these old artwork I want to redo for an artbook so I'm slowly working through that. Thanks for sticking around, I know I don't update nearly as much here...do you guys wanna see me take screenshots of my twitter updates and throw them up on my story? I don't know how many of you guys follow me on twitter or even use it haha. I just wanna keep this a clean gallery-like place where I talk about my health stuff in the comments xD~ Lemme know in the comments? • Not sure how much I'm making sense now, my chemo brain is still pretty bad haha, but yeah, thank you guys for all the support, seriously <3~ #illustration #artistsoninstagram #drawing

[Flowering Wounds] • Sometimes I like to pretend my blue and purple hospital bruises are little galaxies 🌌 • • //health update// So I haven't really been updating things here on insta, sorry; it's just easier to update stuff on twitter and patreon xD;;. Basically I had my first chemo session; it made my body have some pretty bad fluid retention, so I ended up gaining about 7kg of liquid in my body and they had to transfer me to the emergency room. It took about a week for them to finally remove this liquid cyst that my body gained from the chemo, and the liquid was 2L lmao. I was in so much pain for a week it's kinda ridiculous tbh.... but yeah, I got discharged from the hospital last week and my next round of chemo is coming up next week. I hope there's no repeat of what happened omfg D;;;. docs said they're gonna be a lot more careful about fluid retention this time so...fingers crossed >__<~ but hey, I'm still alive! yay. xD

So...I have stage 4 Fibrosis Sarcoma cancer.....Doctor says I have about a year, year and a half left, so.. ...I'm not really sure what to say tbh. I've been cracking jokes on twitter but, well, tbh I'm pretty stressed haha... though, I'm already pretty nihilistic so I really just need to get over my mortality haha...easier said than done tho xD. Uhh....well, I guess I don't have to worry about recycling anymore, my emission's about to get cut real short lmao. Still gotta crack jokes or it's just sad man lol • that's all I have to say right now. I appreciate all the support on twitter and people becoming my patron is just so sweet, thank you guys so much. I apologize my condition might only get worse before it gets better though, I still have a lot of pain problems right now actually...i think that's the worst part of this though, is the pain. god. I'm so tired. • edit: I don't JUST have cancer, I ALSO have a severe heart condition and I'm on a LOT of heart medication which I need to live, so please refrain from making medical advice unless you're an oncologist, cardiologist, or both. Honestly. Please please.

Migration 🐋🌃 • • • Trying for a calm vibe 😆 Did this a few months ago for my Patrons :D~ Thanks for all the support there~! 💕💕 ~ Happy thanksgiving American peeps~ ~ a lil update. good news first - I got a CT scan earlier this week and preliminary results looks good; the scar hasn't grown and maybe it might even be moving back...maybe? xD. I have noticed my physical scars from all my surgeries and stuff is actually becoming visibly smaller, so hopefully that means the scar in my heart that's trying to kinda kill me is also pulling back and getting smaller. So I'll keep taking my $300/month pill hahaha. Again, thank you to patrons who can help out<3 😀 • • a bit of a bad news - all of the doctors at BC cancer thinks the mass in my body is sarcoma, which is....not great. Sarcoma is a rare soft tissue cancer. They need to do more tests to be sure though, which is good. I really hope I don't have it though cause, I swear to god, if I get two unrelated rare diseases piled on me it is TOO MUCH. Man, with this amount of bad luck I should win the lottery to offset it lmao. thanks for all your encouragement and kind words, sorry I can't reply to everyone >.<~ I will def try to reply more • • • #artistsoninstagram #surrealism #cityscape #whale #sunset

[Birdcage] • • I'm back~! Sorta~ hopefully~ loll I kinda put stuff up on my patreon now :3~ link in my profile 👆👆🙏 mostly just sketches and wip tho, just one tier, $1+ xD~ I decided to set it up when my medications jumped to $400/month o( ❛ᴗ❛ )o;;;; • Sorry I've been away for so long without any update..I've kinda got some anxiety about not being able to draw as much as before and it was easier to just not thinking about the social media aspect of it all. ------------ A lil update on my health: Got discharged from the hospital last week and tried to finish this asap. Went in for abdominal pain but my heart was beating so fast in intervals they kept me in the cardiac ICU for close watch cause apparently it was really dangerous for a bit xD;; They also found a lump mass in my body and they're not sure if it's cancer or not. The pathologist team at the hospital can't agree on whether it's sarcoma cancer or a benign tumour I guess? So, that's been fun lol. It's weird how my body is like, really trying to kill itself 😂😂 BC Cancer was supposed to contact me last week but they're not very fast at contacting people I guess? XD -- Fingers crossed its not cancer cause my heart is still a mess and I've no idea how chemotherapy would mesh with my heart medications. I take soooo much heart meds now sometimes I worry for my liver and kidney lol, I hope they can take the meds xD~ I wish I had better news tho lol. I'm kinda still in medical limbo....it's like I've stopped in time to work on surviving and watching everything passing me by...kinda depressing sometimes haha...sorry uwu. But still alive tho. That's a plus. Lmao. ---------- TL;DR: my health is kinda getting worse but I'm still alive tho yaaay • Thanks to those of you who are still sticking around xD💕💕 • • • • • #illustration #surreal #pencil #drawing #instaartist

April shower bring May flowers 🌸☔️🌸 • • • Tried a more, softer, pastel-y look. Let me know how you guys like it (=´∀｀)人(´∀｀=) ~ it's been a while, sorry @-@~ I spent quite a bit of time working on the book cover I did for @connieglynn, and because I'm still not doing the best health-wise, it took much longer than I expected 😅~ The more recent good news is that at least the scar tissue in my heart has stopped growing since I started trying this new medication I'm lab ratting for 😆😂! Though it's still blocking a lot of my heart arteries haha, so moving fast is still quite difficult. There's new meds my doctors want me to try, but they're crazy expensive, like $300 a month expensive @-@;;, on top of the meds I already need....So I kinda finally started a patreon. I'm not officially announcing it yet, I'm still on this bucket-list Japan trip; I do have some wips up for this though 😁~ nothing formal or extravagant, just gonna be a pay what ya want wip blog-y type of patreon (●°u°●)​ 」 Thanks for dropping by 😊 • • • • • #illustration #pencil #umbrella #flowers

How To (mess up then fix) Draw Lips. 😂~ 💋 Glossy or matte lips? I dunno why but I've always really loved glossy lips ♪(´ε｀ ) • • • Editing this smallll part took kinda long too loll. I'm gonna edit the while video later, just dunno when yet cause I'm working on the 3rd cover for..well, you guys will see eventually haha. I'm just very slow at working on anything these days cause back pain xD • Before I woke up I dreamed that my chest scar was all reduced to the point where it was hardly visible looool. I was so disappointed when I woke up 😂😭😭. The disappointment was so palpable I had to share lmaooo ~ oh well haha 😆 • Ps, thank you guys for all the birthday wishes and coffee 💕💕💕~ • • • #illustration #painting #lips #howto

Flower Tea hat 🌺💫 • It's ma birthdayyyyy 😁~ The only time I feel shameless enough to kinda promote my kofi page a little bit @-@~ if you enjoy my content, please consider buying me a kofi? Which I will then just buy tea with. But also coffee. I drink both 😆. link in my profile. Thank you guys so much for even just sticking around 💕 ~ sorry I haven't been posting as frequently as I even want to >_<~ I'm def gonna try to draw more and hope I can ignore my back pain into oblivion 😂~ In the mean time, I do post more random scraps of doodles or processes on Twitter. I don't know why but I feel like I can just chuck random stuff on Twitter; maybe it's cause the interface isn't the best for art posting anyways lmao~ • My next heart CT is in a week and half, and I'm already nervous af. Trying not to think about what will happen if the drugs I'm trying doesn't work 😵~ gotta be positive and just ignore these thoughts hahaha~ Ps, forgot to add that that the tattoo was inspired by @zihwa_tattooer . I wish I could get one from her haha..unfortunately blood thinners, low immunity and tattoos don't mix xD;; • • • • #illustration #witch #stars #tea #coffee

Flower drops💧🌸 • • • This was an gouache+watercolour experiment on hot-press watercolour paper, since I've never used hot-press before, and it really kinda morphed from just an eye into a full face sorta lmao ~ I filmed the process for this painting, though editing takes such a long time I'm not sure if I'm up to it, since my back pain is pretty bad. Also, I found out the reason for my back pain is cause of my heart surgeries hahaha. Apparently during open heart surgery, they kinda bend the ribs open and since the rib goes around to the back and the spine, it can fuck up the back. Sometimes ribs can even be broken so the surgeon can get to the heart better...so yeah, massages doesn't really help me anymore either so that's fun lol. I kinda want to try topical cannabis oil haha. I'll ask the next time I see my cardiologist. I already got the ok from the pre-transplant clinic cardiologist, but it's always good to make sure :p Thanks for sticking around guys :3 • • • #painting #illustration #flowers #tears #watercolor

🧜‍♀️🌺 Rough sketch w colour testin before moving onto watercolor version. _(:_」∠)_ • I'm posting more wip on Twitter so follow me there? 😆 • • • Just saw the pre heart transplant clinic nurses actually haha, I'm actually resting in the hospital lobby rn (´･_･`)....the stress woke me up way before normal and I forgot to take my heart slowing meds before I left, so now I can't walk too fast or my body hurts. Oops. I'm seeing the pre transplant clinic Doctor tmr, and I guess that'll be fun? Lol. Hope I'll remember my meds at least tmr. This doesn't mean I'll for sure have a heart transplant tho. In fact, I really, really, really hope I don't. Cause, well, there's the possibly dying thing (fun fact, 60% of ppl survive 10+ years...lol) but also food restrictions like no raw food like sashimi or medium rare steaks; I heard even some raw veggies I need to be careful of too, I guess like the e coli outbreak on lettuce a while ago would probably be pretty bad for transplant patients...so, uh, fingers crossed there'll be some meds that can help me D;;. But the doctors just want me to be prepared for that possibility. She basically said that they can't keep cutting me open to remove the scar tissue building up lol. I guess medical risks rises every time I have heart surgery xD;; • Tbh I thought I would try to draw more, but I ended up having back pain every other day and it's just...not great. But hey, at least I might be able to post something here once a month? Lmaoo~ I don't really want to dump my sketches here haha...(｡-_-｡) • • • #art #illustration #mermaid #roses #flowers

My fav 4 of this year ✨ which one's your fav? Things I accomplished this year: didn't die during heart surgery. ... .. . That's about it? Lololol I mean that's pretty good I guessss if the worst thing is to just die. Lmao. Tbh tho I was gonna do a fav 9 this year (I'm not too into the #bestnine stuff after years of that haha), but then I realized....I had pretty much just enough for 9 squares...I drew so little this year...honestly that made me so depressed 😭😭 This year made me so pessimistic and even nihilist lmaoo. I can't even really "look forward" to next year cause I'm too scared to hope for the best lol. I feel it's better to just prepare for the worst 😂😂. But I'm not ready lmfao 2019 don't kill me okay??!😂😂😂 happy New Years guys 😂🎉🎉🎊🎋 • • #art #illustration #2018