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February 25 1995 - July 4 2022 My Beautiful Beautiful boy. My BEST friend. The true love of my life !! My Heart and Soul have gone with yours!! There are no words. I am decimated, my child how will I I ever live with out you. I cannot walk. I cannot eat. I cannot think, Our lives will NEVER be the Same. The world lost the most BEAUTIFUL Human that has ever walked the face of this Earth. Dear Lord what has happened. Noooooooo !!!! I need you. I love you with every breath I take. I LOVE YOU !!! Momma Loves you. God help me 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Lowering the flag to half Mast with @jhordan.arius for our beautiful Houston 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Sadly I deleted this post a few days ago. Here is my second attempt. On July 5th my life came to a screeching halt! My worst fear, the most unthinkable, most unimaginable news was delivered. There are truly no words to describe the pain associated with that day and every day since which have left me absolutely destroyed ! The last month has been excruciatingly painful, surreal and beyond unbearable. The intense grieving feelings of loosing your child who was your very best friend, can honestly barely be described or put into words. Houston and I were twin flames we moved through life as one. Of all of my children, Houston and I spent more time together than anyone! As written in his Eulogy I was quoted that we all love our children the same, yet each relationship is uniquely different with each individual person. My soul yearns to be with Houston every day. I wake up and of feel I’m a shell of a human. When Houston died I died with him !! I feel there is no life left for me. How do I live, how would anyone live ? Houston’s siblings and I wait for him to come through the door or walk around the corner and then realize he will never come though the door again, and the pain starts all over. The reality has set in. And it is a brutal harsh reality ! Nothing will ease the pain but I truly appreciate each and every person who have reached out from all parts of the world. You have ALL lifted me in my darkest and most painful hours and days which have felt like an eternity & I am eternally grateful! Moving forward I want to talk about the accident Houston had. Because is was unequivocally an accident. Houston loved life, and had such an amazing bright future before him. I know that I must honour Houston, and the only way in which I feel I can find any meaning in living again is to dedicate my life to helping other people. Your continued prayers for Me and my family are greatly appreciated especially for Houston’s siblings who have been extreme affected by this devastation! The pain will NEVER go away, there will never be a day I do not Think about, Miss or Mourn my Beloved Son until ….I take my very own last Breath 🙏🏻

Today marks a year since we last saw Houston, and it's hitting us hard. We're packing up and heading to Rhode Island, where he filmed his last movie. It's our way of feeling closer to him. We'll be where he was, seeing what he saw, and hopefully, catch a glimpse of the world through his eyes. It's a tough day, but we're doing this together, as a family. We miss him like crazy, but his memory keeps us going. We'll always carry the love and legacy he left us with, today and every day. @thehoustonstevensonlegacy

Canada day with the ones we love ❤️🇨🇦 Missing our @houstonstevenson … 🙏🏻

*Just for Fun * 🤠 I never got a chance to post this video from last July 1st at our daughter Victoria‘s house. We left for Martha’s Vineyard the very next day and didn’t really have great reception. 3 days later - On the 4th of July our existence changed forever …. Almost one year later here is last July 1 of a memory of when time stood still Life was Good !! …. I cannot believe it’s been almost 1 year ! Forever missing you @thehoustonstevensonlegacy @houstonstevenson - ♥️

Imagine being Separated from your child for the rest of your life - Imagine never being able to see him, touch him, hold him, hear his voice, his laugh or see him smile again … Imagine a violent period permanently replaced where there should a life time of memories made together… Imagine, your garage filled with sharpie marked boxes of your sons entire life- The clothes he wore that will never be worn again - imagine you took your last picture of your child, without knowing it was the last … Imagine not being able to watch your child’s hopes and dreams unfold in the future- Imagine waking up to a living nightmare that never ends. This is what child loss feels like every second of every day for bereaved parents everywhere …This is why grief lasts a lifetime !! 🙏🏻 Cleaning out Houston’s home and bringing his belongings to our house was one of the hardest things required of me in my life. It took over 3 months as I would fold 1 or two shirts and break down and cry …. These are some of Houston’s things that are in our home which we call the Houston Room, alot of his things are also in my dressing room and office 🙏🏻 but the most important parts of Houston live in my heart. To All who have walked this unthinkable journey with us since July 4th almost 10 months ago who have held us up and walked through the fire 🔥 with us …. Thank you ♥️ truly … Thank you Thank you for sending the quote above @mishpotter another grieving parent. #988 #mentalhealth #alcoholanddepression #gonetoosoon💔 #forever27 #youshouldbehere #beheretomorrow #houstonstevenson

Life lately - photo dump …. From beautiful sunny Arizona and being able to stand up straight with zero pain ( imagine that ! ) to celebrating a good friends birthday to Mother’s Day and my kids walking out of the darkness into the light in memory of @thehoustonstevensonlegacy - killing it at my rowing regatta - To Major thoracic surgery -loosing my middle right lung needing to remove a tumor lodged between my heart and pulmonary artery - to being brought to my knees these last 10.5 months - loosing my son Houston, 4th of July ..Which has majorly tested my own mental health my faith my strength my resilience my life purpose and to getting back up and fighting !!! To anyone out there feeling like life is not worth it who are struggling in any capacity … there is light at the end of the tunnel ! Tomorrow is always a new day and with each new days brings hope and possibility 🥂 I plan on coming back better and stronger than ever before. 💪🏻 My muscles have been cut through I’m looking at a 4 month or longer recovery ❤️‍🩹 I can barely walk stand or sleep ….. But remember when life knocks you down to your knees …. You are in the perfect position to pray ! 🙏🏻 Keep going and and stay focused everything is mindset and how you see and view life …. Put these words into your vocabulary ( I can ! And I will ! ) Happy fRiDaY !! Wishing everyone a beautiful weekend !! 🌈🌷☀️

♥️ The power of prayer ♥️ - Good vibes and Good Energy 🙏🏻 Tomorrow I am going under an anticipated 6 to 8 hour surgery … to remove a large tumour lodged between my heart and pulmonary artery and growing into my right lung. Normally don’t ask anyone for anything but right now I could use your positive thoughts and prayers that this operation runs smoothly, the thoracic surgeon may have to rebuild arteries ( grafts ) and I may lose part of my right lung …. You can live with one lung but living with 2 is much better. Had opinions from two other thoracic surgeons in Seattle and LA and no one has done this particular surgery… Not going to lie just a little nervous 😬 This has been an extraordinarily tough year and I’m looking forward to putting this behind me. As much as I want, & yearn to see and be with my son Houston my other children need me here on this physical plane ….. I know I’ll have a Guardian Angel in the room with me tomorrow @thehoustonstevensonlegacy 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Celebrating 70 amazing years with our beautiful Jacqui - iconic and legendary WE LOVE YOU ….. 70 never looked so good - 𝒉𝑨𝒑𝑷𝒚 𝑩𝒊𝑹𝒕𝒉𝑫𝒂𝒀 !!! ♥️🥳🌶️🍭🐉🐝🥂🙏🏻 #jacquicohen

Hahaha love this ! Thank you for sending my beautiful @realchristinak so much love and so many kisses 💋 #realhousewives -RHOV 💫🐝🥂🌈🌸💥✨💗

Happy Mother’s Day to every beautiful mother out there who makes the world go around …. Earths internal heartbeat 💗 - My heart is so heavy today but also so full because of my beautiful children who I was blessed enough in this life to be their mother, even though one touched our lives so briefly, he is still with us and will always remain 🙏🏻🙏🏻 To my children I love you more than you will ever know, I know this has been the toughest year of our lives yet you have all carried yourselves with grace strength and dignity, you have all held me up when I should be holding you up, and in essence we have all held each other up 🙏🏻 I love you all so much Forever Mom 🌸💗🙏🏻