It’s 𝗪𝐢𝐥𝐝 what a smile and a laugh will do. ⁣ ⁣ We’ve all been in difficult 𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬⁣ ⁣ Ones 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 we’re challenged to ‘keep it together’. ⁣ Moments where we need to manage our 𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 ⁣ ⁣ ...possibly wanting to react in anger -  maybe a head shake at a stranger, a thumbs down, a curse, or a middle finger because someone 𝐜𝐮𝐭 𝐮𝐬 𝐨𝐟𝐟. in traffic or did something we’re not fond of.⁣ ⁣ I remember being 18 on a road trip to Kelowna with a friend. His car broke down and I’ll never forget how much fun we had in that moment. We were 𝐒𝐭𝐮𝐜𝐤 in the middle of the Coquihalla on a super hot summer day. No cell reception to call for help. ⁣ ⁣ I even attempted to hitchhike 𝐚𝐧𝐝 no one picked us up😒 For hours we were 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝 on the side of the highway and just laughed our 🍑 ‘s off. ⁣ ⁣ That moment taught me that 𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐲 situations we have one of two 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞𝐬. ⁣ 1. Let our emotions run wild and have a terrible time.⁣ 2. Or realize that a situation is outside of our control 𝐒𝐨 how can 𝐰𝐞 make the best of it? ⁣🤨 ⁣ I’m quite clumsy so I’ve had lots of 𝐩𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐞 embracing the 💩 moments and 𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝. ⁣ ⁣ In situations where I have 𝐀𝐧 𝐨𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲 to ‘react’, like a person cutting me off, or me spilling coffee all over the place, breaking a glass or embarrass myself which happens often. I try 𝐭𝐨 laugh it off and smile. ⁣ ⁣ Moments pass and pain is temporary. ⁣ ⁣ I like to 𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞 cold plunges in the same way. ⁣ I may be smiling and laughing but it doesn’t mean it’s not challenging for me. ⁣ ⁣ It only makes my own experience more pleasant. ⁣ And one of my goals in life is making experiences as pleasant & memorable as possible. ⁣ ⁣ I believe that 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞. is far too short to sit in anger, frustration, sadness and pain past its expiry. ⁣ ⁣ Embrace it, accept it, and learn from it. ⁣What can we create from the lesson? ⁣ #nataliasrandomthoughts

The 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓 of 𝐋𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 is 𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ I’d love to 𝐆𝐈𝐅𝐓 someone 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐭𝐬 to @theportaltoself 𝘷𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵. ⁣ ⁣ [𝐀 𝐯𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐄𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐑𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭]⁣ where participants experience a variety of 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝-𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐦𝐨𝐝𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐞𝐬 to achieve a deeper 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 to their authentic being. ⁣ ⁣ Every retreat is focused around mindfulness, community, movement, wellness, & impact.  ⁣ ⁣ - 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐜𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐁𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤 & 𝐑𝐞𝐢𝐤𝐢 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 by @barrywilliamemagliarditi ⁣ ⁣ - 𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐑𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 by @katemiddletonyoga ⁣ - 𝐌𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐚𝐬 𝐌𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐧𝐞 by @tanyacristina ⁣ - 𝐏𝐮𝐫𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞 & 𝐈𝐦𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐭 by @mikesherbakov ⁣ - 𝐑𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐩 by @simonpelland ⁣ - 𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐉𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 by @samantharuberto ⁣ - 𝐇𝐲𝐩𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐲 & 𝐛𝐮𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐂𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝗪𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐄𝐱𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 by @mrjohnnycan ⁣ ⁣ 𝐀 𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐟𝐢𝐭𝐬 will be 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 to a home build in Mexico with @greatnesscollective ⁣ ------------------------------------ ⁣ 𝐓𝐎 𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑: ⁣ ⁣ 1. 𝐓𝐚𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐰𝐨 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 who you would like to experience this with👇🏼 ⁣ 2. 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐲 you would like to join ☺️👇🏼 ⁣ 3. 𝐅𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰 👉 @nataliaanjaphotography & @theportaltoself ⁣ 👈 ⁣ [𝘊𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘌𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘔𝘰𝘯 𝘖𝘤𝘵 𝟷𝟸𝘵𝘩 @𝟷𝟷:𝟷𝟷𝘢𝘮 𝘗𝘚𝘛.]⁣ ⁣ ------------------------------------ ⁣ 𝐑𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐃𝐚𝐭𝐞/𝐓𝐢𝐦𝐞: ⁣ ⁣ Oct 26 @5:30pm - 9:30pm PST⁣ Oct 27 @5:30pm - 9:30pm PST⁣ ⁣ ⁣ If you would like to register for the retreat, 𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐝 𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐯𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐎𝐜𝐭 𝟏𝟒𝐭𝐡. - The link is in my bio.⁣ ⁣ Hope to connect with you on Zoom! ⁣ 📷 @clairegarnerphotography Winner is @meagangriffin 💕 thank you to everyone who entered 🙏

Who knew these guys were so Highlarious 🐮 📷 @nickharborne

It’s easy to get 𝐂𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭 up in thinking we’re all walking the same path. ⁣ as if we’re all headed 𝐢𝐧 the same direction. ⁣ ⁣ My opinion is that we’re not. ⁣ Just like 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬, we may cross paths but all have different destinations. ⁣ ⁣ I’m a big believer 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 everyone comes into our life for a reason. ⁣ …If we 𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰 ourselves to see it.⁣ ⁣ Not everyone is meant to stay. ⁣ Some leave more 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧𝐢𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬. than others. ⁣ But there can always be 𝐀 lesson. ⁣ ...even from a 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 you meet in an elevator or that simple sweet glimpse of a smile as 𝐲𝐨𝐮 walk on by.⁣ Eye contact is a powerful 𝐞𝐱𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞.⁣ ⁣ If something doesn’t align. ⁣ If in 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 heart it doesn’t feel right. ⁣ It it continuously seems to consume your 𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐲 𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 fuel it.⁣ I hope you feel ease in 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠.⁣ ⁣ The empaths & the people pleasers will understand how difficult this is to commit to. ⁣🙋🏻‍♀️ Not feeling 𝐏𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 in pleasing others.⁣ ⁣ Time is our most valuable currency. ⁣ Our journey & choices do not need justification. ⁣ Because they are 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝. to be hurtful. ⁣ Simply 𝐀 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 not to be taken personally.⁣ ⁣ Making choices to simply try to make others happy will only leave us resentful & angry - mostly towards ourselves.⁣ We simply do not have the capacity & time to be there for everyone. ⁣ I struggle 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 this a lot bc I wish I could be. ⁣ ⁣ My mantra is:⁣ ⁣ Be a 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 human.⁣ Have good 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬.⁣ an open heart with clear boundaries. ⁣ ⁣ .𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠.⁣ ⁣ Needle Peak hike, BC⁣ ⁣ #MyOpinion 📷 & shorts ✂️ by @jana.wollesen (bc we decided to hike on the hottest day of the year so my @lululemon tights got transformed into “lorts” - long shorts & gators) stylin 👌🏼😂

.evitcepsrep.⁣ ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ 📷 @stephywray ⁣ Kinsol Trestle - Vancouver island

𝐀 question that stemmed from a thought I had during an exercise in the book I’m reading. ⁣ ⁣ When we say “I’ve 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐭 like this before.” - In a 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 connotation. ⁣ ⁣ Do you think we;⁣ ⁣ - Forget the 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠. of how we felt about previous people or situations/experiences. It simply becomes 𝐀 distant 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 in time therefor allows more recent moments to “seem” more enjoyable. ⁣ ⁣ - In time have we grown, accepted and/or fallen more in love with who we have become as individuals which allows us to be happier in the present moment.⁣ ⁣ - Or have we legitimately never felt this way before. A brand new medley of fulfilling experiences, a new & unique dynamic. ⁣ ⁣ - Or is it something else?⁣ ⁣ I wonder if it’s a reflection 𝐨𝐟 the person and/or thing we feel that joy for/with, our own personal growth or just a 𝐩𝐮𝐫𝐞 uniqueness that allows for us to experience more 𝐣𝐨𝐲. in a moment. ⁣ ⁣ Thoughts? 🧐⁣

shining 𝐋𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 on the past as it 𝐡𝐚𝐬 shaped me. ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ He called me ‘Tony the 🐯’…⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ a boy in high school. Not bc he was trying to be malicious or hurtful…bc he didn’t know any better. ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ Throughout 𝐭𝐡𝐞 duration of our 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞, we simply do not have all the tools & 𝐰𝐞 never will. No matter the age, I find we are all learning at different stages & are here to 𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐝 each other tools from our individually curated boxes.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ In high school, I did not have the tools nor the capacity 𝐭𝐨 not take that nickname to heart & to not carry it up until my late 20’s.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ 𝐭𝐡𝐞 nickname ‘Tony the Tiger’ stemmed from me having stretch marks on my 🍑. I was so self 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐜𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬. of my thighs & 🍑 that I would do anything possible to 𝐂𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 them 𝐮𝐩⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ I would never show, let alone post a photo. Not only would I have 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐦𝐞. behind the way it looked, I felt like it was sexualized & super inappropriate to do so.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ I spent over a decade of not liking my body. ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ 𝐇𝐢𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 it.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ...it now 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐬 my ❤️ to even write that. ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ I remember the very moment that I realized how hard I have been on it.  ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ The moment it physically protected me. ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ For weeks, I cried almost every day bc an 𝐚𝐛𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞. of gratitude erupted⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ I wish that the 15 year old me understood that perfection does not exist. ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ To not hold myself to an 𝐔𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 expectation. ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ And not 𝐭𝐨 compare myself to 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐬. - especially those on the internet or in magazines. I now understand the complex world of angles, lighting & photoshop.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ I still have 𝐑𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 in posting photos 𝐨𝐟 my 🍑 but not for the same reasons as I used to. ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ My 🍑 still has stretch marks & cellulite (that are not visible in this pic bc of lighting) ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ I have learned to embrace what I have been given & I 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄. & appreciate this body immensely for all that it allows for me to experience.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 vessel is healthy & it’s happy. ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ This 🐅 𝐢𝐬 proud of her stripes & how resilient 𝐡𝐞𝐫. body is. ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ 📷 @nickharborne

Never underestimate 𝐓𝐡𝐞 power of a sunrise…⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ the effort that goes into a surprise.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ the 𝐯𝐚𝐥𝐮𝐞 of a kind gesture⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ the sound 𝐨𝐟 stillness⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ the radiance of 𝐚 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ Never undervalue the magnificence of breath…⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ of 𝐀 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ of life.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ Be sweet on living.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ This life is a reward⁣⁣ 𝐰𝐞 simply cannot take for granted.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐡. ⁣⁣ everything ⁣⁣ for it is all a gift.⁣ ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ Sunrise in Ubud, Indonesia⁣ 02.2020

Mountain Bound weekend 🏔 ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ Realizing that I need to start taking a few days to myself after the @ThePortalToSelf retreats & head straight into nature. ⁣ ⁣ After a couple weeks loaded with computer work & cell phone use, I found myself wanting to be as far away from technology as possible. ⁣ ⁣ (If there is ever a time I don’t respond to your messages on SM or texts, please don’t take it personally - As much as it may not seem like the case, I’m not one to like being on my phone. It’s a tough one to balance because I love human connection but also love boundaries with technology) ⁣ ⁣ Deeply craving getting into nature. ⁣ ⁣ That being said.. heading into the mountains to celebrate some of my favorite people’s Bday’s. ⁣ ⁣ This shot was taken after 3 nights, 42 km hiking/camping trip to Berg Lake with friends. ⁣ ⁣ Instead of carrying my tent this time, I am staying in a beautiful lodge… balance🙊⁣ ⁣ Have a fantastic weekend my friends 🙏🤗⁣

Insert travel 🐜 ⁣ ⁣ BC is one of my favourite places to be during the summer. Beautiful mountains to climb, bright blue lakes to swim In ... endless adventures. ⁣ ⁣ I love being in Vancouver but I would be lying if I said I wouldn’t go back to Bali in a heart beat. ⁣ ⁣ February feels like yesterday. ⁣ Currently craving sunshine, scooter rides, fresh coconuts, salty hair, smoothie bowls and beach hopping. ⁣ 02.27.20

“𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐥𝐲.” ⁣ ⁣ The last two nights @theportaltoself retreat, I witnessed so many beautiful souls set their ego aside, step into their courage & very vulnerably share in front of a group of strangers. ⁣ 𝐈 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡…⁣ ⁣ 𝐢𝐧 those who are willing to step outside of their comfort zone. ⁣ ⁣ in 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 volunteer to be in the ‘hot seat’ & commit to stay seated even when things get uncomfortable. ⁣ ⁣ in those that may feel terrified, nervous, with sweating palms & an uncontrollably fast heart beat, yet choose to 𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐭. ⁣ ⁣ in the people who show up for themselves in such a beautiful way. ⁣ Brave.⁣ ⁣ willing to take a chance. ⁣ to take a stand. ⁣ 𝐌𝐚𝐤𝐞 a choice.⁣ knowing 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 life will be better.⁣ ⁣ Just like birds, we need to fall before we can learn to fly. ⁣ ⁣ How will we learn new things and explore the 𝐮𝐧𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐧 if we don’t take that chance?⁣ ⁣ Take a moment to look up at that 𝐬𝐤𝐲, think about all the things you desire, trust those 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐲 strong wings of yours & fly freely into the unknown. ⁣ 𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐜. happens there.⁣ ⁣ We’re all perfectly 𝐈𝐦𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐬 on this journey together. ⁣ ⁣ This year has been a ride most of us will never forget. ⁣ One that will most likely affect us & linger for quite a while. ⁣ ⁣ Each of us is 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 we can with the tools we have. ⁣ ⁣ I hope we remember 𝐭𝐨 lift each other up, share tools, 𝐛𝐞 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝 to one another & acknowledge that each person is dealing with their own battles that most people probably aren’t aware of. It’s easy to assume 𝐚𝐧𝐝 take things personally. ⁣ ⁣ 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞. & community are essential to all of us. ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ 9.4.20 Thank you to my Cold Plunge Crew friends for this epic day of soaring along the coast, through the mountains peaks & swimming in cold water. #GratitudeIsImmense⁣ ⁣ 📷 @ashleydrody

As someone who has ‘𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘭𝘦𝘥’ in romantic relationships I am soooo excited for tonight’s Relationship Workshop led by @simonpelland on @theportaltoself retreat.⁣ ⁣ *𝘚𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥... 🧐⁣ ⁣ Because I lived 2.5 decades of never sharing in fear of sounding weak, I now challenge myself in doing so… ⁣ Cue Natalia IG overshare… ⁣👉 ⁣ 𝐑𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 one area I do a lot of work around & want to continuously grow in. They fascinate me. ⁣ Humans are so complex.⁣ ⁣ I’ve had absolutely 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥, abundant, fulfilling relationships with INCREDIBLE partners who I still think the world of. But my own ‘𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴’ kept coming up. ⁣ I’ve ran away from a lot. ⁣ Mostly my own feelings & fears.⁣ ⁣ For a long time, I wouldn’t let go of patterns from when I was a teenager. ⁣ … I kept one pattern in particular verrry dear to my heart for literally 10 years.  ⁣ I didn’t even know I had it until 9 months ago. ⁣ ⁣ Makes me wonder what else I hold on to? ⁣🤔 What are in my blind spots?⁣🧐 ⁣ I was more concerned about being liked than sharing how I felt.⁣ ⁣ I didn’t know what boundaries were.  ⁣ And if I didn’t know my own boundaries then how can anyone else be aware of them, let alone respect them? ⁣🤷🏻‍♀️ ⁣ Not realizing in those moments that this blocked vulnerability 𝐚𝐧𝐝 there was no 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 deep authentic 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. ⁣ ⁣ I would suppress memories & emotions that would then surface in other ways that I’m not proud of. ⁣ ⁣ No matter how much we throw under the rug, that mountain of suppression will eventually explode or show up in poor health. ⁣🌋 ⁣ The bigger the mountain, the louder the reaction. ⁣ And I’m a big believer that dis-ease causes disease.  ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ I’ve chosen to re-route my Romantic Journey to one that is co-committed, healthy, loving, abundant, thriving, creative, and supportive. ⁣ ⁣ A #ConsciousPartnership is what my heart desires. ⁣ ⁣ If you would like to join day 2 of the online retreat. You can do so by following the link in my bio😊 📷 by @clairegarnerphotography